holiday getaway

where are we going this holiday?

Warcraft III Version Switcher

Now you can switch from version 1.23 to 1.24b to and fro without any hassle! Just download the program as provided below!

Link: http://www.mediafire.com/?bvdmmmn0v4v

I tested, proven and uploaded it myself =)

MMORPGs

recently i've been hunting for new mmorpgs which we can come together and play.

here's the 3 which i'm looking forward to getting my hands on...

1) Priston tale II: Engima - played priston tale, nice.

2) Aion: Fantasy fighting

3) Blade and Soul: Martial arts fighting

All haven't come out yet, tmd.

the door as heavy as...
the door as far as...

Games

When's the next game of risk? COME ON~!

Worth A Read

7 Reasons the 21st Century is Making You Miserable
Scientists call it the Naked Photo Test, and it works like this: say a photo turns up of you nakedly doing something that would shame you and your family for generations. Bestiality, perhaps. Ask yourself how many people in your life you would trust with that photo. If you're like the rest of us, you probably have at most two.

Even more depressing, studies show that about one out of four people have no one they can confide in.


The Sad Bear 1, by Nedroid

The average number of close friends we say we have is dropping fast, down dramatically in just the last 20 years. Why?

#1. We don't have enough annoying strangers in our lives.
That's not sarcasm. Annoyance is something you build up a tolerance to, like alcohol or a bad smell. The more we're able to edit the annoyance out of our lives, the less we're able to handle it.

The problem is we've built an awesome, sprawling web of technology meant purely to let us avoid annoying people. Do all your Christmas shopping online and avoid the fat lady ramming her cart into you at Target. Spend $5,000 on a home theater system so you can see movies on a big screen without a toddler kicking the back of your seat. Hell, rent the DVD's from Netflix and you don't even have to spend the 30 seconds with the confused kid working the register at Blockbuster.

Get stuck in the waiting room at the doctor? No way we're striking up a conversation with the smelly old man in the next seat. We'll plug the iPod into our ears and have a text conversation with a friend or play our DS. Filter that annoyance right out of our world.


From outofbalance.org

Now that would be awesome if it were actually possible to keep all of the irritating shit out of your life. But, it's not. It never will be. As long as you have needs, you'll have to deal with people you can't stand from time to time. We're losing that skill, the one that lets us deal with strangers and tolerate their shrill voices and clunky senses of humor and body odor and squeaky shoes. So, what encounters you do have with the outside world, the world you can't control, make you want to go on a screaming crotch-punching spree.



Oh, yeah. Right in the crotch, buddy.

#2. We don't have enough annoying friends, either.

Lots of us were born into towns full of people we couldn't stand. As a kid, maybe you found yourself in an elementary school classroom, packed in with two dozen kids you did not choose and who shared none of your tastes or interests. Maybe you got beat up a lot.

But, you've grown up. And if you're, say, a huge DragonForce fan, you can go find their forum and meet a dozen people just like you. Or even better, start a private room with your favorite few and lock everybody else out. Say goodbye to the tedious, awkward, painful process of dealing with somebody who's truly different. That's another Old World inconvenience, like having to wash your clothes in a creek or wait for a raccoon to wander by the outhouse so you can wipe your ass with it.

The problem is that peacefully dealing with incompatible people is crucial to living in a society. In fact, if you think about it, peacefully dealing with people you can't stand is society. Just people with opposite tastes and conflicting personalities sharing space and cooperating, often through gritted teeth.

Fifty years ago, you had to sit in a crowded room to see a movie. You didn't get to choose; you either did that or you missed the movie. When you got a new car, everyone on the block came and stood in your yard to look it over. You can bet that some of those people were assholes.


Your parents, circa 1982

Yet, on the whole, people back then were apparently happier in their jobs and more satisfied with their lives. And get this: They had more friends.



That's right. Even though they had almost no ability to filter their peers according to common interests (hell, often you were just friends with the guy who happened to live next door), they still came up with more close friends than we have now-people they could trust.

It turns out, apparently, that after you get over that first irritation, after you shed your shell of "they listen to different music because they wouldn't understand mine" superiority, there's a sort of comfort in needing other people and being needed on a level beyond common interests. It turns out humans are social animals after all. And that ability to suffer fools, to tolerate annoyance, that's literally the one single thing that allows you to function in a world populated by other people who aren't you. Otherwise, you turn emo. Science has proven it.

#3. Texting is a shitty way to communicate.

I have this friend who uses the expression "No, thank you," in a sarcastic way. It means, "I'd rather be shot in the face." He puts a little ironic lilt on the last two words that lets you know. You ask, "Want to go see that new Rob Schneider movie?" And, he'll say, "No, thank you."

So one day we had this exchange via text:

Me: "Hey, do you want me to bring over that leftover chili I made?"

Him: "No, thank you"

That pissed me off. I'm proud of my chili. It takes four days to make it. I grind up the dried peppers myself; the meat is expensive, hand-tortured veal. And, now my offer to give him some is dismissed with his bitchy catchphrase?

I didn't speak to him for six months. He sent me a letter, I mailed it back, unread, with a dead rat packed inside.

It was my wife who finally ran into him and realized that the "No, thank you" he replied with was not meant to be sarcastic, but was a literal, "No, but thank you for offering." He had no room in his freezer, it turns out.


The Sad Bear #2, by Nedroid

So did we really need a study to tell us that more than 40 percent of what you say in an e-mail is misunderstood? Well, they did one anyway.

How many of your friends have you only spoken with online? If 40 percent of your personality has gotten lost in the text transition, do these people even really know you? The people who dislike you via text, on message boards or chatrooms or whatever, is it because you're really incompatible? Or, is it because of the misunderstood 40 percent? And, what about the ones who like you?

Many of us try to make up that difference in sheer numbers, piling up six dozen friends on MySpace. But here's the problem ...

#4. Online company only makes us lonelier.

When someone speaks to you face-to-face, what percentage of the meaning is actually in the words, as opposed to the body language and tone of voice? Take a guess.

It's 7 percent. The other 93 percent is nonverbal, according to studies. No, I don't know how they arrived at that exact number. They have a machine or something. But we didn't need it. I mean, come on. Most of our humor is sarcasm, and sarcasm is just mismatching the words with the tone. Like my friend's "No, thank you."

You don't wait for a girl to verbally tell you she likes you. It's the sparkle in her eyes, her posture, the way she grabs your head and shoves your face into her boobs.

That's the crux of the problem. That human ability to absorb the moods of others through that kind of subconscious osmosis is crucial. Kids born without it are considered mentally handicapped. People who have lots of it are called "charismatic" and become movie stars and politicians. It's not what they say; it's this energy they put off that makes us feel good about ourselves.

When we're living in Text World, all that is stripped away. There's a weird side effect to it, too: absent a sense of the other person's mood, every line we read gets filtered through our own mood instead. The reason I read my friend's chili message as sarcastic was because I was in an irritable mood. In that state of mind, I was eager to be offended.

And worse, if I do enough of my communicating this way, my mood never changes. After all, people keep saying nasty things to me! Of course I'm depressed! It's me against the world!



No, what I need is somebody to shake me by the shoulders and snap me out of it. Which leads us to No. 5 ...

#5. We don't get criticized enough.

Most of what sucks about not having close friends isn't the missed birthday parties or the sad, single-player games of ping pong with the wall. No, what sucks is the lack of real criticism.

In my time online I've been called "fag" approximately 104,165 times. I keep an Excel spreadsheet. I've also been called "asshole" and "cockweasel" and "fuckcamel" and "cuntwaffle" and "shitglutton" and "porksword" and "wangbasket" and "shitwhistle" and "thundercunt" and "fartminge" and "shitflannel" and "knobgoblin" and "boring."



And none of it mattered, because none of those people knew me well enough to really hit the target. I've been insulted lots, but I've been criticized very little. And don't ever confuse the two. An insult is just someone who hates you making a noise to indicate their hatred. A barking dog. Criticism is someone trying to help you, by telling you something about yourself that you were a little too comfortable not knowing.


Above: A flamboyant transvestite with about
five times as many friends as the average person

Tragically, there are now a whole lot of people who never have those conversations. The interventions, the brutal honesty, the, "you know, everybody's pissed off because of what you said last night, but nobody wants to say anything because they're afraid of you," sort of conversations. Those horrible, awkward, wrenchingly uncomfortable sessions that you can only have with someone who sees right to the center of you.

E-mail and texting are awesome tools for avoiding that level of honesty. With text, you can respond when you feel like it. You can measure your words. You can pick and choose which questions to answer. The person on the other end can't see your face, can't see you get nervous, can't detect when you're lying. You have almost total control and as a result that other person never sees past your armor, never sees you at your worst, never knows the embarrassing little things about yourself that you can't control. Gone are the common quirks, humiliations and vulnerabilities that real friendships are built on.

Browse around people's MySpace pages, look at the characters they create for themselves. If you've built a pool of friends via a blog, building yourself up as a misunderstood, mysterious Master of the Night, it's kind of hard to log on and talk about how you went to prom and got diarrhea out on the dance floor. You never get to really be yourself, and that's a very lonely feeling.

And, on top of all that ...

#6. We're victims of the Outrage Machine.

A whole lot of the people still reading this are saying, "Of course I'm depressed! People are starving! America has turned into Nazi Germany! My parents watch retarded television shows and talk about them for hours afterward! People are dying in meaningless wars all over the world!"

But how did we wind up with a more negative view of the world than our parents? Or grandparents? Back then, people didn't live as long and babies died more often. Diseases were more common. In those days, if your buddy moved away the only way to communicate was with pen and paper and a stamp. We have Iraq, but our parents had Vietnam (which killed 50 times more people) and their parents had World War 2 (which killed 1,000 times as many). Some of your grandparents grew up at a time when nobody had air conditioning. All of their parents grew up without it.

We are physically better off today in every possible way in which such things can be measured ... but you sure as hell wouldn't know that if you're getting your news online. Why?

Well, ask yourself: If some music site posts an article called, "Fall Out Boy is a Fine Band" and on the same day posts another one called, "Fall Out Boy is the Shittiest Fucking Band of the Last 100 Years, Say Experts," which do you think will get the most traffic? The second one wins in a blowout. Outrage manufactures word-of-mouth.

The news blogs many of you read? The people running them know the same thing. Every site is in a dogfight for traffic (even if they don't run ads, they still measure their success by the size of their audience) and so they carefully pick through the wires for the most inflammatory story possible. The other blogs start echoing the same story from the same point of view. If you want, you can surf all day and never swim out of the warm, stagnant waters of the "aren't those bastards evil" pool.


Actually, if you count the guy holding the camera, this man
statistically has more friends than most of us do.

Only in that climate could those silly 9/11 conspiracy theories come about (saying the Bush administration and the FDNY blew up the towers, and that the planes were holograms). To hear these people talk, every opposing politician is Hitler, and every election is the freaking apocalypse. All because it keeps you reading.


9/11 photos. Circled: Conspiracy

This wasn't as much a problem in the old days, of course. Some of us remember having only three channels on TV. That's right. Three. We're talking about the '80s here. So there was something unifying in the way we all sat down to watch the same news, all of it coming from the same point of view. Even if the point of view was retarded and wrong, even if some stories went criminally unreported, we at least all shared it.

That's over. There effectively is no "mass media" any more so, where before we disagreed because we saw the same news and interpreted it differently, now we disagree because we're seeing completely different freaking news. When we can't even agree on the basic facts, the differences become irreconcilable. That constant feeling of being at bitter odds with the rest of the world brings with it a tension that just builds and builds.

We humans used to have lots of natural ways to release that kind of angst. But these days...

#7. We feel worthless, because we actually are worth less.

There's one advantage to having mostly online friends, and it's one that nobody ever talks about:

They demand less from you.

Sure, you emotionally support them, comfort them after a breakup, maybe even talk them out of a suicide. But knowing someone in meatspace adds a whole, long list of annoying demands. Wasting your whole afternoon helping them fix their computer. Going to funerals with them. Toting them around in your car every day after theirs gets repossessed by the bank. Having them show up unannounced when you were just settling in to watch the Dirty Jobs marathon on the Discovery channel, then mentioning how hungry they are until you finally give them half your sandwich.

You have so much more control in Instant Messenger, or on a forum, or in World of Warcraft.

The problem is you are hard-wired by evolution to need to do things for people. Everybody for the last five thousand years seemed to realize this and then we suddenly forgot it in the last few decades. We get suicidal teens and scramble to teach them self-esteem. Well, unfortunately, self-esteem and the ability to like yourself only come after you've done something that makes you likable. You can't bullshit yourself. If I think Todd over here is worthless for sitting in his room all day, drinking Pabst and playing video games one-handed because he's masturbating with the other one, what will I think of myself if I do the same thing?




The Sad Bear #3, by Nedroid

You want to break out of that black tar pit of self-hatred? Brush the black hair out of your eyes, step away from the computer and buy a nice gift for someone you loathe. Send a card to your worst enemy. Make dinner for your mom and dad. Or just do something simple, with an tangible result. Go clean the leaves out of the gutter. Grow a damn plant.

It ain't rocket science; you are a social animal and thus you are born with little happiness hormones that are released into your bloodstream when you see a physical benefit to your actions. Think about all those teenagers in their dark rooms, glued to their PC's, turning every life problem into ridiculous melodrama. Why do they make those cuts on their arms? It's because making the pain-and subsequent healing-tangible releases endorphins they don't get otherwise. It's pain, but at least it's real.

That form of stress relief via mild discomfort used to be part of our daily lives, via our routine of hunting gazelles and gathering berries and climbing rocks and fighting bears. No more. This is why office jobs make so many of us miserable; we don't get any physical, tangible result from our work. But do construction out in the hot sun for two months, and for the rest of your life you can drive past a certain house and say, "Holy shit, I built that." Maybe that's why mass shootings are more common in offices than construction sites.

It's the kind of physical, dirt-under-your-nails satisfaction that you can only get by turning off the computer, going outdoors and re-connecting with the real world. That feeling, that "I built that" or "I grew that" or "I fed that guy" or "I made these pants" feeling, can't be matched by anything the internet has to offer.

Except, you know, this website.

(Extracted from http://www.cracked.com/article_15231_7-reasons-21st-century-making-you-miserable.html)

And its BACK~! in ENGLISH now.......

Nobody (English Version)

You Know I still Love You Baby. And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I don’t want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya I know what you’re thinking Baby why aren’t you listening How can I just Just love someone else and Forget you completely When I know you still love me

Telling me you’re not good enough My life with you is just too tough You know it’s not right so Just stop and come back boy How can this be When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I don’t want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I don’t want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can’t we just, just be like this cause it’s you that i need and nothing else until the end Who else can ever make me feel the way I I feel when I’m with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you’re not good enough My life with you is just too tough You know me enough so you know what I need boy Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I don’t want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I don’t want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don’t want no body, body I don’t want no body, body

Honey you know it’s you that I want, It’s you that I need Why can’t you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I don’t want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free Nothing else matters other than you and me so tell me why can’t it be please let me live my life my way why do you push me away i don’t want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you

Farewell Dinner

Alert to all

This coming sat, 27 Jun, will be the farewell dinner for Chiu and Liang.
Please kindly free up that day for the dinner.

Date: 27 Jun 09
Venue: TBC
Time: Dinner time (TBC)
Attending: TBC (Invitations to anyone)

Recommendations for venue are welcome.

*NO NEWS heard out from anyone so far on the confirmation of venue and time.

One of the chio-est member in the Management Committee (J) had a casual conversation with me over the MSN about leaders, as her boss was so damn irritating and had to turn to me (I'm being labelled as a VP who listens to my men whining). So her views were:

1) leaders dont take sides.. they are impartial to all their members
2) leaders who build up and raise other leaders are what makes them remarkable
3) leaders always are willing to listen to others
4) it's a leaders job to maintain harmony in a group
5) action speaks louder than words. walk the talk and show you're worth the respect
6) a leader, stands up for her members all the time, and relates to them not only as a leader during work, but outside as a friend

It is only during this conversation that I realised how shitty J's boss is, up to the extent that she has to come and whine to the no. 2 (yours truly). Of course, with her chio looks and everything, I listened to her whinings and gave her practical solutions to her problems.

Ultimately, my advice was, "be answerable to yourself and your sub committee, because once you achieve that, you will have a clear conscience and tell yourself that you've tried your very best. In this way, no one can fault you."

It is during this one year that I learned about the ugly side of people.

May this be a good learning experience for me.

28th August 2009.

I cannot wait for this day.

kk, i blog.

love

love is patient
love is kind
it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud
it is not rude, it is not self-seeking
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth
it always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres
love never fails
(1 Corinthians 13:4-8a, NIV)
~ A walk to rmb

love is like the wind, i can't see it. but i can feel it.

if i can only think of you, you're too far.
if i can see myself in your eyes, you're too near.
but if we close our eyes and kiss, it's just right.

time to give our blog some life~!

Looking at our blog moulding as each day passes, I guess everyone is having a great life with nothing emo happening around. Nevertheless, emo has never left us. Its just waiting for a chance to strike on us. Lets start the ball rolling again...

Dearest,

Its so amazing how we met,
Yet so amusing why we did not met earlier.
Its so crazy how we got together,
Yet so meant to be why we are together.

It wasn't easy at the start but I have nothing to complain because it is the best thing that could ever happen to me and that's you. If I were to turn back time, I will still do the same thing. Else, it will be my biggest regret to give up and let you go.

Time and time, I do, say, assume, thought so the wrong things and unknowningly I got it all wrong. You gave me all the chances to learn and to be better and I sincerely will. Sorry may seem to be a useless word already and actions may be the best sorry. Now, give me a day, a month, a year, a lifetime to write the greatest ever love story that you and I went through.

Love,
Chris

http://www.mycen.com.my/rescue/

see this and i got emo.

where's the photos?

where's the photos ah hao? haha..

Tonight, I Celebrate My Love For You

Its the second wedding dinner I have attended in 5 months =)) And this song has been domineering the whole night. Its just so amazing how two people can entrust their lives to one another by saying I DO. Wedding day is simply the best day in one's life. Beautiful.

In another few years time, I guess it will become e4's turn to get married one by one. I wonder who will be our first? ;)

under the table where snow falls. houses are made of candy, "X" marks the spot.
polar expresses and golden tickets. everything large, everything tiny.
catching in the vast green fields. pots of gold and honey make rainbows.
poison apples and kisses of life. everything sweet, everything not.
one and only, and meant fors. dragons and knights, princesses and toads.
the chocolate river leads to the "ever after" AND ever after is just a few pages away.
"away from the big bad adults."
"nothing lasts forever even if we want it to.", quotes.

To my dear roomie

you are not at all perfect,

you snore too. and you grind your teeth.

you laugh ostensibly when watching "friends". and you blast your music too.

you may think it doesnt affect me, it did. but nevertheless, i could take it.

i am not perfect, and so are you.

at least i dun make so much noise while destressing.
at least when you were sick, i became sick with you.
at least when the room was stuffy and hot, and you dont have as much fats as i do, i wore the minimum to compromise with you.

at least, if im not perfect, i try to be perfect for you.

this doesnt mean that i couldnt stand you. it just means that i am not perfect and so are you.

but perhaps we are all perfect in one way or two. For its the many little imperfections that make us so beautifully perfect for you.

With this,
and with lots of love,
i refer this to you,




love,
your roomie

Conversation with Myself

This face in the mirror
stares at me
demanding Who are you? What will you become?
And taunting, You don't even know.
Chastened, I cringe and agree
and then
because I'm still young,
I stick out my tongue.

~Eve Merriam, "Conversation with Myself", 1964

Current fav song

BEST SONG IN THE WORLD LA!!!! MY KTV SONG!!!

Hokkein rocks

For those who have missed these out on my FB, ficking funny!!!

Adult Contents

Now, all of you who are viewing this posting should have already gotten through the "Content Warning" page indicating that you understand that this blog may contains content suitable for adults only.

I'm not gonna add any explicit contents to this blog.
Just added the function for a little fun. ha.

girls generation vs wonder girls!

I watch until my computer show BOD (bluescreenofdeath).

one more

9 > 5

tell me!

the reason

This old school song let me realised something. Do give this song 4mins of your time and listen to it again =)


Slapping me out of this childish world of mine,
I sang along with the song.
Line after line I began to feel something,
Something that I should have known earlier.
The reason that made my monochrome printer spoil,
Is you.


<3

There's no better inspiration than theft. stolen and edited:

With her long endless greying black hair, she sat there; like in the horror in asian horror films, waiting to turn to face me if i turn to face her, showing her revolting face, or faceless revolving head. Or as she would, walk by, head and arms hanging, and in a flash, raise her eyes to meet mine to send jolts of chill down my spine. She would then raise her hands, fingers spread out. Faded and dry like her hair, her dark and wrinkled skin seemed to wrap only bones. Sharp fingernails pointing at me. Hands that were less like claws. More than talons with the one ring to rule them all. Chapped lips circling her razor teeth like fear starting to circle me. She could not stop her wretched laughter about floating babies with no weight. Her last victim laid to my left, just a flash ago, and the previous on his left, and the previous...

super cork

Touching MVs

there has been a bit too much happiness going around in this blog.
I shall bring it back to its former state of emo.

For the most emo song, from a korean movie "My Girl and I" but with a Jap song.



For the most emo video, from a jap drama 1 Litre of Tears, 1リットルの涙, Ichi Rittoru no Namida.

one in a million

Old school song yet i found meaning in it...



I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me
Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one, the one for me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us

bad influence.

my roomie is a bad influence.
he's playing warcraft now.

and for those who used to complain that my mouse sux becuz it's spoilt.
i bought a new one.

Beautiful Sunday

Yesterday is a day to remember~ unknowningly some things unexpectedly happened. =D

First of all,

Poor Johny stood on the ball,
Poor Johny had a great fall.
All the best friends and all the good friends,
Could not stop laughing till he got up again.

But nevertheless, its not that we don't show concern but we do =) Dont sad already. Just prolly this few days, play chinese chess may face certian limitations.

Next up,



Im Yours

Well you've done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me all our peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'll be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
It cannot wait, I'm yours
(Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love)
No I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours,

so please don't complicate
our time is short
this is our fate I'm yours

Oh I'm yours

So please dont hesitate no more no more
it cannot wait (its your god forsaken to be loved) the sky is yours


To be continued...

Why Chris Brown beat Rihanna.

New Vocab

1. fulview - short form for full preview. to be used in mahjong

2. tio corned - simply means tio conned. but corned becuz favian ordered a $5 worth of fried corns and we felt conned.

and i fell horizontally today at soccer and hurt my back and right hand. instead of "OMG, are you alright???" care and concern, i got everyone laughing. -_- you all good...

everyday is the day after that day.

The wonder girls craze around the world. Enjoy...

wonder boys~

I got to share this with everyone man~ Lets welcome the wonder boys~



anw, recently alot of things happened. chris finds it hard to blog about emo stuffs. maybe happy emo stuffs instead but not yet =))

shall update a more emo post soon~ this place is gettin flood with animal xxx. =D

chrisishappy

Tigers tio owned

Lions tio owned.

http://www.fmylife.com/

seems like there's sth similar to this blog.

for that not interested to know~

i stood up and walked out of this mess for once,
i saw a clearer picture of what i really wanted.
a picture that told me the answer,
an answer i couldn't agree more.
but i saw a dark and long path,
full of awaiting dangers to get me hurt.
yet decided to brave through it,
cause i know that down across that path is happiness.
even if one day i am not able to make it there,
at least my footprints will always be there till someone replaces it.

i hate waiting yet loving it in another. Had never done this before and shall see how the story ends. Oh i love fairytales cause they always end with happily ever after. =))


on a lighter note, im banned from wonder girls in some way. so take a look at this instead!

'What is it with guys like Adam? Do they really like driven crazy by women like Polina? They are like lemmings running in to the sea; drowning in their misery. If they are not in misery then it cannot be love.'

From the movie 'Alex and Emma'

Chris' Recommendation

And it goes to........



This song has been repeating over and over again through chris' mind besides AhnSoHee and gang's Nobody.

please show me the direction.did i make the right choice.

Loves for the D.I.Y ice cream at ICE CUBES @ chomp chomp esp. baileys with cookies n cream.
P.S. can we head chomp chomp again???? =D

Our Newest Craze~!

Personal Favourite: SoHee
Favourite Move: the opening and closing of the hand across the mouth - by SoHee =)

young, and sexy. their appeal and dance moves make up for their vocals.

I WANT NOBODY BUT YOU!!!

and for those who like the other video better...



Hot. Sizzling. SO HOT!!!

Last but not least....



i like how how the music goes. but i must say, the video is a bit off with the wonderwoman image. but fits the young girls ba.

从开始到现在......

ayee... came across this old song '从开始到现在' and the lyrics kinda triggered alot of emotions and thoughts. By right 从开始 i shouldn't got myself into this mess but 到现在 i had never regretted. I know no matter how hard I try, its futile but I still continue to give my everything against all odds. Till the day i drop to the ground and say I am really tired, I know I tried and its time to move on. I need a bottle. A bottle to fill my thoughts and cast it away in the sea. Why is life always out to make fun of us. I guess life ain't fairytales afterall. Not always lived happily ever after.

The reason that kept me going...

our favourite.

a says:
we need a past time that promotes critical thinking and creativity
a says:
in the form of vivid colours, plants and animals
b says:
and improves your management skill
a says:
which is encompassed by a wider scope of geography and dragons
b says:
as well as risk-taking guts


nicknames are changed to protect the identities of minors.

Zombiez?

here's a youtube video guys.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ7K5NzrGwI&eurl=http://www.keeptouch.net/forums/showthread.php?t=111302

i figure those playing left4dead will be rather interested in this.

Summary:
A guy was being hypnotised by an arcade game. The experimenters used flashes in the shooting game as a subliminal hypnosis tool. After getting enough of those, he 'doze off' while standing in the presence of his friends. Next, the experimenters transferred him and his 2 other friends to the experiment 'lab', where the settings are similar to the game. All of them, including his friends, went into hiding in a room to observe, while the guy woke up with a gun in his hand. Zombies started coming in from all directions. Guess what will you do in a situation like this? Just ShootZ~

He's Just So Into You

People often wonder what is true love... whether is it finding the perfect guy/girl or loving the flaws of the guy/girl perfectly. Obviously, the first option seems hard to achieve. But, the second option is seemingly a even harder uphill task to achieve. And probably you have to meet many/little wrong ones before u meet the right guy/girl. Anyways, destiny has got it all planned so cherish them before they are lost. And that includes friends.

you threw me into a hole and left me there,
tried to get out but was of no avail.
got used to it as time goes by,
slowly falling deeper and deeper each day.
now that i realise i could not climb out anymore,
i will be always here for you.

11:11 am/pm , i will always do.

I'm gone

I'm gone for good.

FML of 28 Feb

Today, I forgot to do my French homework, but since it was an online worksheet, I told my teacher my internet wasn't working. I told her with an e-mail. FML

EMOtionally HAPPY~

This EMO post contains nothing but HAPPINESS as it's a HAPPY 270209 DAY as it's a day to remember! and I will. =D

To start with, ITS GST DAY~ the thought of it jus adds double happiness to it~ $300 for me 突然发财 =D thanks garment!

Next will be im lovin' it~ yes! I Love Mac! for whatever reasons that i can think of...
And what makes a perfect meal? A perfect date...


Sitting down next to you,
I was able to be myself.
Irregardless of how others look at us,
We were in a world of our own.
It felt just like a dream yet so real,
But I know this time it's true.
How I wished I could stop the time right there right then,
but time ran faster than i could.
Every moment spent was nothing,
nothing but quality.
Heartfelt.


*jumps around with great joy*


Okay the above doesnt really makes sense. I will write something more decent when I recover from overdosage of happypills. and not redbull =P

We are friends (PART I of my GP essay)

i shd have written this entry last week but was kinda lazy so here i am now. Things have not gone well and and i wish to say a few words regarding them

Last week, i met our dearest Weixiong along the way home. He has grown taller (much taller than xy), became fitter and looks matured in every sense. Then i started thinking of the days we 2 actually walked home together all the time. Then i started thinking when did we stop doing that. It makes me wonder why some friends actually stop meeting up all of a sudden. Is it becox we suddenly have our differences? Is it becox of a conflict? Or is it becox due to that conflict, our pride prevents us from reconciling with one another? Im sure he still enjoys soccer, or even mahjong, so what then stops us from meeting up with him?

They say that friends come and go but i say that friends only go if u let them go. Friendship does not just pop out from somewhere all of a sudden and remains there forever. It requires effort to maintain it, compromise and mutual understanding. Normal gatherings like soccer, supper meetups, etc. are essential for such bonds to continue to last. They are like the bridges to what will then consequently form the different friendship status. The three i wish to talk about are these: normal friends, close friends and true(best) friends.

Normal friends are more like acquintances. You know them only superficially and talk only when necessary. You dont and wont talk much becox there isnt a common topic and are not familiar with that person's personality. When displeased by that person, you will choose to distance yourself from him or her rather than confront him or her.
Close friends are friends whom you hang out frequently. You share many common interests and topics and always seek to have fun with one another's company. Though sometimes there are a few disagreements here and there, they are settled quickly becox you cherish the friendship and thus you make compromises. You wont hesitate to confront that person if he or she steps on ur toes as it takes two to make a friendship work.
True(best) friends are very rare. They are the ones who will dare to fuck you upside down when he or she feels that you are doing sth wrong instead of keeping quiet and letting them continue. Whatever they do they will think of your situation, and they will try to change it for your own good even if that makes them the devil, even if that makes you hate them. They are the ones who will place you above themselves, who will be there when you needed them most, and are also the ones who weathered the most storms with you. They are the ones whom you will think of the moment you are in trouble, but thats becox they are the most dependable.

Now, ask yourselves honestly, how many close or true friends do you have? Are they uninfluenced by the touchy subject that is known to be "money"? It is very ironic, and in fact very depressing, to let a simple gift to a birthday boy or girl be laden with so much unhappiness and disagreements. It defeats the purpose of the gift and mocks the meaning behind it. A birthday gift should be given willingly, not asked commercially thru an sms or its likes. And even if it has to be done that way, it should be carried out very carefully, and definitely not with cold bluntness. Money is not a very nice subject to be discussed among friends, esp. if you are just normal friends, and even sometimes close friends can be affected by it. If you are cold and blunt, then its only natural that you receive what you give. Like i said, friendship takes effort to build and maintain. Unless you are referring to true friends whom you can be directly blunt with, otherwise you have to be socially ept, as simple as that.

I shall end off the part 1 of my GP essay here. 4.30am liao la, tired sia. To be continued..

My Most Emo Post of All Times

What do you care about

forget all that i care about
i wish i didn't care
for all that's left is memories now
and in my mind shall it stay

i couldn't foresee the future ahead
becuz i thought you were there
now that you're gone, and gone for good
i hope it stays that way

nvm abt the hugs and kisses
you didn't want to hold my hands
what do you really care about
when this love is all so plain

is it the pleasure that holds you back?
or perhaps a passing cloud you just grabbed?
disappear into winterland
return and say "the end"

i was never in a position to choose
you chose to leave, i'm forced to lose
can't fight this decision i knew was coming
for your eyes show no holding back

one last time i ask of you
to hold me tight, then let me loose
give me a sign, you care for me
until i realise, my hands were around me

Champions League : Real Madrid vs Liverpool

i'm going to sleep now.
so that i can wake up to watch Real Madrid vs Liverpool later at 3.45am.
I didnt do any assignment for uni application today.
i'm screwed.

Hopefully i fall aslp immediately.
Hopefully i can wake up later.
Hopefully Liverpool win.
Hopefully im not tired tml.
Hopefully i can finish all my assignments.
Hopefully my application is successful.

Something stupid.
I jus realise im not posting on my blog.

The Sun, The Rain, The Rainbow

Life can be so emo.. yet so beautiful..

七八八八仔 (CJ7888)

Our dear emo pet.

Emolicious yet again

Some people search for their love all their lives.
Some people don't.
Some people only realize how much it means to them when it lost.
Some people don't.

I guess this explains pretty much why some people who might have been through the same schools and yet only met many many years later. I guess some things are destined in life. Let me share with you the meaning of destiny that has been stuck in my brain ever since I came across it.

What is destiny?
Destiny is the bridge that you build to the one you loved.

To those out there still seeking your true love or even those who have found it, no matter how easy or difficult problems your facing, just persevere. Your bridge might just be a little more difficult to build than the others, but it will still take you there. =)

Okay crap. Back to Emolicious~

I wonder if you brought your crayons along with you all the time,
Because you add colours to my life anywhere anytime.
For that, I wrote something back for you.

Sweeping mines through the night,
Though I tried with all my might.
You still got all the mines right.
But I got the minesweeper right.
=)



Dream on, Chris......

we can all emo about this

Emolicious Run

That sudden urge;
That emolicious run;
That made me realise;
That name of yours......





I shall name you CJ7888.



Teach me how to sweep mines pleaseee.

Notes on Valentines'.

After reading all the post-Valentines' entries, I would like to extend the blessings to BOTH the groups of singles and couples.

Had you had a great Valentines'?
This Valentines' has been a day, or period, rather, of mixed feelings for everyone (including you. yes, YOU). sweetness(double choc, caramelised, honey comb, diabetically aphrodisiacal), bitterness(vomit-inducing, tear-generating, the thought stopper), pain(heart wrenching, intolerable, pleasurable?), ecstatical bliss(         ) and love. Some more, some less. Some all and more.

-How do u say how much you feel with three words, or less(or none)?


(not trying to put a point forward here but all the people with emo status' seem to have their names start with the letter after 'I')
Just kidding..

"I love you" (or replace 'love' with other words with more or less 4 letters)
"I'm _____" (choose from:happy, sad, excited, crushed, lonely, emotional, silly or insert own word)


-How do you surprise?
A flower? A bouquet? 99 roses?
A ring? A proposal with a knee on the ground?
A profession of love? A gift to the stranger always sitting beside you during lectures? Random love notes to all the lockers in school(for fun, to fish, for business)?


-How do u deal with the surprise/disappointment?
Feel happy that he/she is beaming with joy?
Expect something in return?
Feel crushed that everything has come to waste?
Wonder how much he/she means what they say?
Be caught in that tangle of memory of disappointment and pain?
Feel like "Miss Invisible" or "The Man Who Can't Be Moved"?

In this light, it is so strange to know that the titles of the top 4 songs of 2008 are:
Apologise
Low
Take A Bow
Stranger

Others included in the top 100 are:
Your Love Is A Lie
Crush
No One
Disturbia
Better in Time
Misery Business
Empty
No Air
Shadow of the Day
Heartbreaker
Like You'll Never See Me Again
Inconsolable
Leavin'
Can't Hold On
Sorry
Hate That I Love You

Then again, to the people in a relationship, I wish you'd stay happy in that relationship and find love in your partner and find bliss in your relationship (ever after). To the people who do not have a partner, maybe the person you are looking for (consciously or not) might just be an acquaintance or someone among your friends. You'd never know what will happen. That stranger in the long train home might just be someone to you in years to come. To the people who have chosen to remain single, rejoice. Single Awareness Day does not have to be a sad day. Valentines' already over anyway.

Rejoice. Bliss is upon us(like the heat rays). Tomorrow never dies and tomorrow will be good. =)

Mahjong RuleZ

i was thinking of coming out with our own mahjong rules. haha...

anyone still on abt the Drinking Mahjong game?

Emo pic

Emo enough? =)

Here comes the pic

poh say we need pic in blog..

Big Blue Sky

okay, now i hope we have cleared the gloomy air that has fallen upon us.
it's too tiring reading the long posts lah, machiam like my textbook like that.
or even worse than john's literature text.

we are e4ians. nothing can change that.

besides, we need to find something other than mj to do. i rmbed we talked abt it during the dec holidays but arrived with no conclusion on that part. haha.. mj is too fang bian as something to do when we meet up.

by the way, are we going anywhere this mid-year? taiwan? hehe. hot springs leh. so far i think the whole bunch of us haven't go overseas together yet, always small grps here, small grps there. let us all go to taiwan, and get ourselves some XMMs. those with gfs, don't worry. we will keep mum abt it.

oh ya, think we better stop the hunting for a while. it's getting more boring ever since the first mission. either that, or we do the same as what we did for the first mission for every cars parked in the hunting grounds.

poh, if your image is upright, then i don't know what's right liao lah.

mc day

today i on mc. yet no one believe. sad. say i chao keng.


BTW as the blog can be viewed by public, i have to maintain my upright image. for those who dunno me, im the kind that rarely play mahjong and i'm forced into their so call 'hunting' activity.

Letter of the day

Okay. V.day over and many things happened over the weekend. My blessings for those blissful couples and to us single lads, hopefully we find our other half too. One of the major shocking things that happened very unexpectedly is the you-know-what. Been thinking about this matter and keeping mum about it, now i think its time for me to organize my thoughts and put it to words.

Disclaimer: The below-mentioned things are PURELY me and my thoughts and may or may not represent what others feels. Pardon me but I feel that its time to say something. My greatest apologies to those who are offended by my words.

To: Whom it may concern & u

Some things just don't occur just overnight or over a single thing. Hopefully, u did realise or feel something amiss A LONG TIME AGO and if u didn't, disappointment is all I can think of now. I know its futile digging up history now but I sincerely hope u do see what turned the friendship sour.

Firstly, I guessed u already know by now that we are pretty upset over WL's present. Let me make this clear that it is not the monetary issue that created the unhappiness and its the fact that u planned and decided ON YOUR OWN and left us no room for discussion and "requested" that we do not buy any present. u asked me if I know that I do not need get any presents and I was like HUH, since when did we plan what to get for WL. u then told us to pay XX for a two year present. I SERIOUSLY DONT MIND PAY XX AMT FOR THE PRESENT but FOR A TWO YEAR PRESENT, DONT U THINK ITS ABIT WTF? U EVEN PLANNED FOR THE FOLLOWING YEAR. ASK YOURSELF IF U EVER CARED FOR ANYONE'S PRESENT THIS YEAR FOR THOSE THAT HAVE PASSED UP TO TODAY. Seriously, pardon me but life doesn't really revolves only around U AND WHAT U WANT. Or do u want us to message u and say," Hey, pass us XX amt for the next 2 years for whoever's present since ur bf is not around." I hope u understand that WL IS OUR FRIEND and not just UR BF.

Secondly, the next thing that I can think of now is the birthday party issue between u, favian and johny. I admit I was very upset and unhappy over what happened. Firstly, u planned to celebrate together and u even got UR OWN PROPOSED FOOD LIST READY without consulting the other 2 birthday boys. Then for what u get them to go down to the place that day. Then after, not only u decided to cancel the celebration, how nice of u to even plan for them what day and time they can celebrate their own birthday. And u took the best timing and expect us to turn up without even thinking whether the other 2 birthday boys can make it. In the end, did u wonder how many ppl were at favian's party? Did favian's feelings ever crossed ur mind if his clique were not able to attend his party just because they have to attend ur party and comparing favian's relationship with them with urs. If I were in favian's shoes, I will be awfully upset even though I understand that they went because of ur BF. Again, I have to emphasize that please be more sensitive over others' feelings and think for others too. I know u may not have realise what u have done cause u may not mean it. But please be more mindful of others in future. Its good to take initiative but over-doing it by planning without consulting will cause unhappiness. Anyway, do u know that johny was at ur party? Did u realise that he wasn't there during the photo taking? Or johny's presence doesn't really matter? How would u feel if u go for ur friend's party and ur friend forgot about u? Just my thoughts though.

Thirdly, its regarding chiu's present. When we told u how much to pay for the presents, u asked what we bought and how much were each individual gifts then u come telling to us that u not sharing for chiu's present. Its retard and troublesome to collect like $2 all over again from the 10 over people and poor johny came out with u and ur bf 's share out of his own pocket. Then why ask in the first place and dont inform us in advance that ur not sharing. It was way passed his birthday that we bought his present and I believe u had sufficient time to consider not to share with us. And not after we telling u how much it cost. And yet again, its not about the monetary issue that I am concerned of. Anyway, I am kind of curious is it so hard to find a right time to give chiu his present or is it just an excuse. Its passed 3 months and counting. And I am more than excited to find out what u have got for him that made u not share for chiu's present.

Okay. Enough of ranting. That's all I can think of now. I know I have no rights or whatsoever to comment on u but its just my feelings. I am telling u this still as a friend hoping that u do not offend more people in future cause I don't think its only me that feels so. Just be more sensitive and mindful =)

WL, this part is catered for you. Its not that you are not part of the clique anymore or neither I did not regard u as one of us anymore. I still treat you as a friend that's why I did not say anything about your gf cause I don't want you to get hurt. And not that I did not try to see what you can see in her, but all i can say is I failed. Yes, you can put the blame on me that's for sure but after all the things that happened, I really don't know how to put it across to you till today. You also know that we find it hard to find a common topic these days, and its true. Not that we don't want to include you in our activities but we lead different lifestyles now like what u said. The memories were beautiful which I also reminisced but now we have to accept the fact that we lead different lives. We do things that you don't, and vice versa. I hope you can understand that part. We will still be the e4-ians. Do spend more time with the rest or will end up losing what's more worth in life. Some things are hard to retrieve once lost.

Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to say SORRY to all my beloved e4ians for the wrong things that I have done and said. I will be a better friend. Let bygones be bygones. I believe time will heal everything. =)



Much love,
Chris

let the past be in the past

don't dwell on the past.
cuz the past you can't change a bit.
but look into the future.
there's more to it than the present.

i got very emo after listening to
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIfZYAUTL8k&feature=related
あなたのこと待ってるよ
it kinda means 'i'm waiting for you'
describes the feeling i have now towards alfredo and carbonara with cream sauce.
and some other craps.

lots of emo stuffs recently.
so, why not we all sit ourselves down, have a nice drink, and see life in a lighter way?

i don't like to see anyone frown.
i don't like to see anyone sad.
i don't like to see anyone crying.

but i especially like it when chiu hao showed his sianz face when he bao.

My Quote for the day

Kind words do not cost much. They never blister the tongue or lips. They make other people good-natured. They also produce their own image on men's souls, and a beautiful image it is.
-- Blaise Pascal

more emo time instead?

Thanks johny

无 says:
if not, i organise monthly dinner
无 says:
steamboat, my place

the qns is who's dar dar

dar dar still remains as a mystery up till today.

e4mo Valentine's Day

e4mo's 1st vday.

went out for late lunch at bukit timah.
theme of the place is "not so sweet".

went to john's house for mahjong.
went to fei fei for supper.
went to seletar for hunting.
hunting was shitz, poh didn't shine the light long enough for all to see.
and that uncle stared at all of us becuz we're peeking at him and his partner making out at the back of the van. nice.

didn't emo for the whole of vday.

today, i broke my resolutions again.
and i invented one word. boku.
something like... "BOKU YOU!"
i need to be reminded not to talk abt her.
已是前年

PAP kpkb

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
i was still thinking of going to australia to find weiliang next year vday

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
becoz its CNY first day

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
so i can still fly back the 2nd day

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
anything u like lo

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
but i guess i should refrain from doing that le

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
firstly, the cost....

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
2ndly, 8 hours there, 8 hrs back

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
i will DIE

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
yea

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
cool

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
is it a long weekend for next year's vday?

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
nv check

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
YA!

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
it is

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
14th is SUNDAY

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
n a public holiday

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
then

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
15th is 2nd day CNY

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
i can even come back on 3rd day of CNY...

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
16th

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
ok

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
i can fly on 12th Feb 2010, friday night

< <> > Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... says:
n come back on Tuesday 16th Feb

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
sorry but i dun really wish to know

Failed. Tok to the hand says:
ps



I bet she doen't knw the meaning of "Tok to the hand"

grammer error

johny. our blog title got grammer error: where our stories TURN emo.... not turns.

i apologise for my nitpickingness

vday live at penang

i cant believe my vday jus ended lidat.

"omg why r u here?! here's penang u know?" is the only thing she said. when she 1st saw me.

only met her till 5. although it was 7hrs, but we r not alone. n she went out to climb penang hill with her lecturer n frens.

the nite time was mine. quite the same as last nite.

saded. my vday is only 3 paragraph.

nv celebrate ur vday oversea. u might end up more lonely.

As the day draws nearer

3 more mins to SDay (Sad Day)

Rejoice.

have a great Vday.

Valentine Week Sadness

1) The blood donation drive conducted in school rejected me as a donor becuz my vein was too small. The nurse was surprised I was able to donate 4 times before. The risk is having my vein collapse and the blood stop flowing. I was given a bag of nuts and the stupid red squeezy thing again.

2) I just found out some girl that i fancy in sch is attached. tmd.

3) The vday jelly cakes that i bought was destroyed becuz i put it too close to the laptop and the heat melted the jelly.

4) I calculated and found out i still can't survive with 2 tuitions going on at the same time. anyway, my new tuition kid is a girl. cute and blur.

5) still no date on vday.

In view of all us singles, the activites proposed are...

1) drink until you get crazy over pub's waitress
2) play mj until mon comes. yes, monday. not sunday. we can take a break for soccer.
3) travel to occ or safra for pool. that will be the same as last year as we celebrate Single Awareness Day.
4) movies, and see all those couples hugging, kissing, and touching each other at the backseats
5) midnight, we go to parks and see old couples doing it. however, this need the strong support of ppl who have gfs (i.e. jing, chiu, vian), plus jing's very very powerful search light. not to mention chris and me to dismount from vehicles and recee.

that's abt all i can think of.

vday, or is it dday? platoon, MOVE OUT~

Yotsuba no Clover

Vday riddle

Question: What do you say if someone accuses you of not being sporty?

Answer: I'm not a leopard

Vday!

Thoughts on Unpacking, Thom Gunn


Unpacking in the raw new rooms, I clear,
Or try to clear, a space for us, that we
May cultivate an ease of moving here
With no encumbrance near,
In amplitude. But something hinders me:

Where do those go, these knick-knacks I forgot?
-- Gadgets we bought and kept, thinking perhaps
They might e useful someday, and a lot
Of others that were not:
Bent keys, Italian grammars, Mickey Mouse caps.

And there are worse grotesques that, out of sight,
Unpacked, unlabelled, somehow followed too:
The urgencies we did not share, the spite
Of such and such a night,
Poses, mistakes? an unclean residue

That drift, one after another, till I find
They have filled the space I carefully prepared;
The sagging shapes I thought we left behind
crawl out within the mind
seeming to sneer This is the past you shared.

I take a broom to them; but when I thrust
Round the diminished luggage, some roll back,
Surviving from my outbreak of disgust
As balls of hair and dust
Made buoyant with a kind of fictive lack

I need your help with these. They rest unseen
in furniture we know, and plot a changing
To grey confusion of the space between.
Now, as I sweep it clean,
I realise that love is an arranging.

Valentines

V.Day is just 2 days awayy~ well, i dont have any dates for that day so it will be a Singles' Club E4mo* day . My hands are itchy still~ Didn't get the right dosage last week. Seemingly the dosage needs to be increased as time passes. Social becomes cravings becomes addictions. Stopping all medications as of last night, I wanna drink this coming weekend~

*For more information:

Event: Singles' Club E4mo
Date: 14 Feb 2009
Time and Venue: To be advised~
Main Contact Person: Johny
Theme: Emo









I think you are the key...

Tired

Tired.

Dun let johny take 1st blood. =)